Sunday, January 20, 2013

Let's Get Outta Here!

Well, actually, my winter break dah start almost a week dah now. Hahaha. Dari minggu lepas, all I did was watching movies, eat, having fun with friends, and tengok movie lagi, and makan, masak, and borak, borak, siap ada parti lagi with supersenpais. Yes! The supersenpais of Mansoura-Manchester Medical Programme, semuanya pass dengan jayanya alhamdulillah, or should I address them as DOCTORS now? They will be graduated this February! Awwww mesti happyyy dah habis belajar and grad!

Okay,alright. Let's get to the main thing here.

I AM GOING TO LONDON! Heehuu! Actually, tak ada perasaan sangat nak pergi bercuti ni. I guess, it is all because belum pack barang lagi, so belum terasa nak pergi mana-mana. So, today, all I have to do is pack my things. Musn't leave anything important behind. Like passport, camera, charger battery camera, my purse, and yang sekutu dengannya. Haha. Baju pun baru cuci tadi. So esok kering, boleh pack masuk bag terus.

I'm going to London with my housemates; Aina, Wani, and Zati. We gonna spend 9 days there, including to Conventry and Birmingham too. Plan had been made, hopefully everything's going smoothly :)

 Aiceh, kekunun preview lah sangat. Hahahaha

Okay that's enough I guess. I have to make a list "things-to-bring" now. Or else, tomorrow I will be running here and there, cari barang itu ini, last-last tertinggal. Hahaha. So, I think this gonna be my last post before I fly there. I will tell you my story there later, so wish us a safe and fun trip!

p/s: tadi ingatkan nak beli socks satu pair je. Sekali 3 for LE 10. Terus terpaksa beli 3 pasang.
p/s/s: Harap nanti tak snow and sejuk sangat kat sana.
p/s/s/s: Alhamdulillah, you are home safely. I am sure you had a lot of fun. :)
p/s/s/s/s: thanks Kelly bagi pinjam beg!

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Ini Salah Satu Definisi Bebas

Before OSCE exam yesterday. Muka cover cuak

All exams were finished!
Thesis done and submitted!
Bilik dan rumah dah dikemaskan!
So now, I can declare that.... *drumroll*
Sekarang hanya tunggu dan berdoa untuk result. Mudah-mudahan kita semua baik-baik sahaja. I had done my best, and now I leave everything to you, Ya Allah.
And yes, can't wait, London in 5 more days! :D 

p/s: Have fun ye awak in Amsterdam and Belgium!
p/s/s: gotta start planning

Friday, January 11, 2013

"When Love Arrives"

Terserempak dengan this video posted on Facebook.  It is a poem, written by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye. But, what caught me the most is, I cried, while listening to it. Because it's like get hit, right at the heart, by an arrow, but no arrow. Get it? Get it? Haha

It is just beautiful. Just, listen :)

When Love Arrives
by Sarah Kay and Phil Kaye
I knew exactly what love looked like- in seventh grade. Even though I hadn't met love yet, if love had wandered into my homeroom I would've recognized him at first glance. Love wore a hemp necklace. I would've recognized her at first glance, love wore a tight french braid. Love played acoustic guitar and knew all my favorite Beatles songs. Love wasn’t afraid to ride the bus with me. And I knew, I just must be searching the wrong classrooms, just must be checking the wrong hallways, she was there, I was sure of it. If only I could find him. 

But when love finally showed up, she had a bow cut. He wore the same clothes every day for a week. Love hated the bus. Love didn't know anything about The Beatles. Instead, every time I try to kiss love, our teeth got in the way. Love became the reason I lied to my parents. I’m going to- Ben’s house. Love had terrible rhythm on the dance floor, but made sure we never missed a slow song. Love waited by the phone because she knew that if her father picked up it would be: “Hello? Hello? I guess they hung up.”

And love grew, stretched like a trampoline. Love changed. Love disappeared, slowly, like baby teeth, losing parts of me I thought I needed. Love vanished like an amateur magician, and everyone could see the trapdoor but me. Like a flat tire, there were other places I planned on going, but my plans didn't matter. Love stayed away for years, and when love finally reappeared, I barely recognized him. Love smelt different now, had darker eyes, a broader back, love came with freckles I didn't recognize. New birthmarks, a softer voice. Now there were new sleeping patterns, new favorite books. Love had songs that reminded him of someone else, songs love didn't like to listen to. So did I. 

But we found a park bench that fit us perfectly, we found jokes that make us laugh. And now, love makes me fresh homemade chocolate chip cookies. But love will probably finish most of them for a midnight snack. Love looks great in lingerie but still likes to wear her retainer. Love is a terrible driver, but a great navigator. Love knows where she’s going, it just might take her two hours longer than she planned. Love is messier now, not as simple. Love uses the words “boobs” in front of my parents. Love chews too loud. Love leaves the cap off the toothpaste. Love uses smiley faces in her text messages. And turns out, love shits! 

But love also cries. And love will tell you you are beautiful and mean it, over and over again. You are beautiful. When you first wake up, “you are beautiful.” When you've just been crying, “you are beautiful.” When you don’t want to hear it, “you are beautiful.” When you don’t believe it, “you are beautiful.” When nobody else will tell you, “you are beautiful.” Love still thinks- you are beautiful. But love is not perfect and will sometimes forget, when you need to hear it most, you are beautiful, do not forget this.

Love is not who you were expecting, love is not who you can predict. Maybe love is in New York City, already asleep, and you are in California, Australia, wide awake. Maybe love is always in the wrong time zone, maybe love is not ready for you. Maybe you are not ready for love. Maybe love just isn't the marrying type. Maybe the next time you see love is twenty years after the divorce, love is older now, but just as beautiful as you remembered. Maybe love is only there for a month. Maybe love is there for every firework, every birthday party, every hospital visit. Maybe love stays- maybe love can’t. Maybe love shouldn't.
Love arrives exactly when love is supposed to, and love leaves exactly when love must. When love arrives, say, “Welcome. Make yourself comfortable.” If love leaves, ask her to leave the door open behind her. Turn off the music, listen to the quiet, whisper, “Thank you. Thank you for stopping by.

p/s: macam bak kata azza, luar macam singa tapi hati macam tisu.
p/s/s: lusa start final sem 9 exam! doakan okay!
p/s/s/s: sejuk sangat ni. burr.

Monday, January 7, 2013

Of Neurology, Orthopaedics, Rheumatology, Psychiatry, and Neurosurgery

Now I am on my study break
for my final Semester 9 exam

13th January 2013- MCQ
14th January 2013 - Essay
15th January 2013 - OSCE

Wish me and my fellow friends luck. Pray for our success.
Yes, now we are samurai-ing with our notes and books

 Thank you.

Okay macam serius semacam. Tambah gelak sikit.

p/s: Mansoura getting colder. They even said day after day after tomorrow (read : tulat) it's gonna be 1'C. Burrr
p/s/s: Hujan and angin kuat semalam. Takut T.T
p/s/s/s: Let's pray for pantai timur Semenanjung Malaysia.
p/s/s/s/s: bila nak buat resolusi nya??

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Page 1 of 365


At first, I wanted to write a goodbye post lah kononnya semalam. But then, termalas pulak sebab layan Batman. Hahaha. Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL! Yes, 2013 finallyyy hereee! Haha semangat pulak bertahun baru. Padahal bukannya kahwin ke tunang ke pun tahun ni macam ada beberapa orang kawan *ehem* kite *ehem*. Congratssss! Menghitung hari gitu. Hihihi. But siapa tak semangat tahun baru kan? At least lah, at least, semangat nak tengok fireworks? Tak? Okay tak. -_-" Hahahahaha. Eh banyak pulak gelak. Pfft.

First, I would like to thank Allah for giving me another chance to breathe in 2013.  Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Too many things I have been grateful for 2012. All ups and downs had taught me to be a better person. Senang cerita, 2012 mematangkan saya dalam banyak perkara. Pendek kata, semua aspek.

What 2012 had taught me?

1. Knowing that you have done your every best you can do, and leave it to Allah to take care of the rest just because He knows the best is TRUE. I always heard and calming myself with these words, but when it really happened to me, I feel loved. How Allah never abandoned us although we often abandoned Him.

2. Broke up with my ex. Well, let's get not too personal. What past is past. But hey, thanks. No seriously, thanks :) Thanks for taught me how to love and to be loved. Thanks for all the sweet memories. Thanks for the experience. Thanks for everything. For all my faults towards you, I hope you forgive me. And I always pray to Allah so you will find your happiness though we are not together anymore. I know you are happier and better now, and I am glad you are.

3.  Friends. 2012 taught me A LOT about friends. Friends who are gonna stand by you no matter what happened. Friends who are always supporting you, and you know you always have their back. Friends who you cannot trusted your secrets and stories with. Just because they gonna sell it to others and talked behind our back. Friends who are nice in front but making up stories behind instead of asking directly. True friends. Fake friends. All learnt.

In front of Queen Hatshepsut Temple

Malacca with family

4. Went to Luxor, Aswan, Abou Simbel. A fantastic trip we had! Banyak belajar about zaman ancient Egypt. And also cuti-cuti with whole family kat KL, Genting and Melaka masa summer break hari tu. Yeay! Oh and also, family getaway kat Pandan Beach, Lundu. Hihi.

5. Met Mohd Muzamel. One of the best things that ever happened to me. I pray to Allah this gonna last forever. The way we met and everything about us, is beyond my imagination. And alhamdulillah, everything has been smooth till now. One of the best memories of 2012 :)

 Muzamel at BBQ night with family. Well, I am not that short :P

6. Muzamel met my family for the first time. The fact that he planned everything even before summer break and flown over from Johor to Sarawak, just to meet my dad, I would say a brave gentleman indeed. And at the end of his trip, like he said to me, "Alhamdulillah, mission saya ke sini semua tercapai". And the fact that my family accepted him very well, is one of the things I feel grateful for.

7. Alhamdulillah, tak pernah lagi kena repeat paper or year.

8. Felt closer to Him :)

9. Few changes happened in family. Bapak dah jadi lecturer kat Institut Aminudin Baki and part-time lecture kat UNIMAS. Selalu ulang alik ke sana sini. And selalu jugak tengok macam tak cukup rehat. Abang berjaya masuk UNIMAS in Seni Halus. Mak makin busy and penat, tapi masih kuat! Adik-adik makin besar. Dan alhamdulillah semuanya pandai menyesuaikan diri dengan perubahan ni. Ainaa dah habis PMR. Alyaa tengah tunggu result SPM. 

10. Datuk Fazlieza Merican, my datuk angkat since Form 1, telah kembali ke rahmatullah. Agak mengejut sebab tetiba je warded kat hospital, and 2 weeks after that dapat berita dah tiada. Semoga Allah mencucuri rahmat ke atas beliau. Al-Fatihah.

What I am looking forward for 2013?

1. My friends and I, pass all exams with good results. Then, all gonna proceed to our final year this September inshaAllah.

2. Trip to London this end of January will go smoothly.

3. Maintain and build, a good and better relationship with Allah, family, friends, people around me, and Muzamel. Walaupun takkan dapat puaskan hati semua orang, tapi sekurang-kurangnya buat yang terbaik.

4. Muzamel will be graduated this year, and I know he'll get a good job out there ;)

5. Be a better person than 2012!

6.Give more to people. Selagi masih ada masa and kudrat ni.

7. Expect less and worry less. Tak tinggal solat, and  khatam Al-Quran lagi.

8. Can't think any more. Hahaha. Pendek kata, semuanya lagi better dari last year! :)

Oh btw, semalam tak celebrate mana-manapun. Duduk rumah je tengok cerita Batman. Ala yang The Dark Knight Rises. Tak perasan yang cerita tu saya tak tengok lagi! Entah macam mana boleh terlepas pandang. Pfft. Haha. So, that's all for the first page of 365. How about you? :D

p/s: Semester 9 exam this 13-15 January. Pray for all of us pleaseeeeee. Thanks! :)
p/s/s : On my study break right now. Menyeru semangat belajar. Fuhhh!